I was supposed to...

I was supposed to stop

I was supposed to delete this

I was supposed to delete this blog

I was supposed to continue

I was supposed to continue writing but in another direction

I was supposed to stop writing with my left

I was supposed to stop handing out leftovers

I was supposed to start

I was supposed to start writing right

I was supposed to start living right

Mi amiga and I met up a few months back and she told me she had an idea - she thought I should blog and share the poetry I write... she was taking up blogging about her testimony.

I told her I actually had a blog but I was planning on deleting it - but her intervention was timely and I've just been waiting for the time to take up my new blogging path well and proper.

I decided on a date: the 7th of July because I like to do things in a significant manner. The number 7 is one that symbolises completion, often dubbed 'God's number'. Ooh I actually included something on this in my English Dissertation (praise God for the 1st! Ah I have multiple academic success testimonies!)

The number seven symbolises perfection and completion. In the Bible for instance, the seventh day (Shabbat) is the day of rest which marks the end of God’s creation of the world and everything in it (cf. Genesis 2.1-2).

And then I realised upon perusing my blog that my last post is dated 7 July 2010 - so I obviously applied this same thinking a year ago...

Reader, I was supposed to get married.

If not today, then on July 17th because it's a Sunday - easier for people to make it to the wedding day and it has the number seven in there - how marvellous.

Yes, I like to plan ahead

But most times what I plan in my head

Fails to harmonise with the plan of the Godhead

Yes, I said I was supposed to get married

But who said?

I did give him (my anonymous fiancé-to-be) some leeway

With dates in 2012, 13, 14...

But I failed to align my thoughts with those of the Way, the Truth and the Life

And now, I still struggle with the self-centred

Desire to control

Which in essence is the desire to be god

Caught up in a Genesis 3:5 lie

Confusing the desires of my deceitful heart

- Exposed by Jeremiah in chapter 17 verse 9

With God's desires for my life

- Revealed in Jeremiah 29:11

But I now operate on the Seek Ye First Principle

I seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness

And all those things will be added unto me

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Eh oui, j'avais l'intention de supprimer ce blog, mais bon voilà, nouvelle direction définie. J'en avais marre d'écrire sur des sujets qui ne changeront pas ma vie (sauf de meilleur en pire).

J'en avais marre de ne pas vivre pleinement mon christianisme - cad suivre le chemin que Jésus Christ a tracé pour moi, pour nous, pour qu'on puisse vraiment vivre et pas seulement exister.

Je n'ai pas supprimé tout ce que j'ai écrit sur ce blog - keeping it real, qu'on puisse voir un peu de quoi je parle quand je dis 'nouvelle direction'.

Ah, j'ai un peu négligé mon français, mais plus maintenant!

Aujourd'hui c'était le jour de mon mariage.

C'était planifié quand j'étais ado. Eh oui, je suis organisée à ce point.

Mais le fiancé ne s'est toujours pas manifesté donc je me dis que ça sera pour 2012, ou 2013, ou encore 2014, parce que j'avais bien entendu envisagé ce fait dans mon plan extraordinaire.

Mais Dieu merci, je me suis rendu compte qu'il y a des choses plus importantes. Que dis-je? Une chose primordiale: "Chercher premièrement le royaume et la justice de Dieu" et tout le reste viendra!

La Bible parle de la relation entre Dieu et son peuple en employant la métaphore de la femme/mariée pour désigner son peuple. C'est vraiment une très belle image - surtout quand on considère l'union et l'unité des deux (Genèse 2:23, 24), et l'amour sacrificiel (Ephésiens 5:25).

Aujourd'hui c'est le jour du mariage, le mariage n'est pas que pour la journée.

Vivons pleinement cet amour manifesté par le don du Père, en la personne du Christ et par l'action du Saint-Esprit.